Sorrow and Hope
This was written 6/29/15, the day after Jason resigned from RHC. Jason resigned. Yep, it hurts to even type it. It hurts because we have loved so much at Redemption Hill Church. We are invested. All of us. Every little bit of us. My heart is raw and my sorrow is deep. Some moments my heart is so heavy within me that the mundane feels impossible. Ordering pizza, finding bottles, shampooing hair feels so strange with my heart so heavy. Then, one of my children smiles or I turn to do something and it is already finished by Jason. In those moments I realize, this heart hanging outside of my body feeling is good. Jason's smile has changed. It creeps into the corners of his eyes like before. My Jason made a wise, hard choice. He sent me a link recently to a powerful article written by Ray Ortlund that has come back to my heart and mind so much recently. The punch line is that ministry isn't everything,...